Everything To Everyone

This is the band that I spent the weekend obsessing over. They are a family transplanted from across the Pacific (Streets of Laredo are originally from New Zealand and are now based in Brooklyn). They’ve received some coverage and I heard Girlfriend a couple of months ago, but this song just struck a chord with me. It is the lead song of the first of two EPs.

That led me to listening both EPs. A lot.

I am finding it hard…

There is something to be said for struggling. I find myself staying quiet and inside, away from the world. It gives me the time and space to think about things. It helps ease my troubled mind.

I would like to be more carefree and honest, but I find myself dreaming and then calculating. My mind vandalizes my dreams. I want so desperately to say one thing…to do one meaningful thing, and I rationalize not doing because how it can affect everything for everyone. I want to be selfish for that one time and yet I concede my wish to try to be considerate of all others.

I don’t want to lose anyone and if it means not have anything more than that, I struggle with how this all works out.

Enjoy Everything To Everyone.

Through The Door I Saw You Smile

Too often we (the royal we might be most appropriate here) rush past something that we should appreciate without realizing it. With bands and music and writing about it, I can sometimes get swept up in the rush to find the next big thing or the next song to proclaim my love for.

As I’m not writing as much, I’ve taken a bit of a step back and realized that it’s silly to be looking for the next Magic Man when Magic Man hasn’t even broke through yet. In this case, they’re playing a nationwide tour as a support act, which is a lot bigger than when they were a duo releasing this song a couple of years ago, but they’re not a band that has conquered the landscape. Give it time and I’m confident they will.

Patience is a wonderful, terrible thing. It takes patience to watch trees grow tall, but it is patience that leaves a man awkwardly waiting for a longer time than necessary when a date doesn’t show up.

It is also what lets a relationship grow, evolve, and surprise you when your own feelings about a girl are different than they were, even a year ago. Time is an ingredient that goes without mention.

I guess I could have picked the Guns ‘N Roses song just as well, but somewhere in the trading off of “you were the only one to know” and “I was the only one to know” the truth about the monsters we live is freed, if only for brief seconds when we let each other in. I hope that you enjoy Monsters by Magic Man.

Still Trying

I haven’t felt terribly moved to write about anything recently. It took this Nathaniel Rateliff video and how it peeled back some things like onions (and it was definitely onions) to make me want to say anything. Credit to Adam for sharing.

Sometimes the simplest arrangement of music or feelings is the most powerful or moving and this song captures some of that. We can cast stones, whisper wishes to the heavens, or wistfully sigh when different things arise and none of that affects anything, even when we want to believe otherwise.

I had a disconcerting dream last night. It was a nightmare and wish at the same time. It was a terrible dream in that I was dying; it was a wonderful dream because she loved me. It was the hot breath and cold air playing a duet staged by the air. It was the time and distance reinforcing thoughts. It was certainty and uncertainty playing with my mind, wounding me with the hope that it might work, but not seeing it through.

I wish that there was an opportunity to tell her, but those moments escape.

I’m left still trying.

Favorite Albums of 2013

There’s a simple threshold for my favorite albums of the year: did I spend any time obsessing over the album (i.e. repeated listens, telling anyone who would listen that this album is great, etc.)? These are the albums that met that threshold and I made note of.

Three albums stood out more than the rest to me: White Lighter, Tender Madness, and The Bones of What You Believe. Those were my favorites (in that particular order). I think I wrote about a quarter songs of White Lighter individually (including the time I hiked several miles up to a reservoir listening to it), Tender Madness houses 2 of my favorite tracks of the year, and CHVRCHES might be the one with the most tracks I listen to on a regular basis.

Links are to iTunes. Photo credit to Jon Bilous. Enjoy and happy new year.