Over the course of 17 years, my father and I put 236,097 miles on a little old Civic. My dad put a lot of miles on commuting back and forth to work. I put most of my life’s miles on it.
I sold it last week.
It was a lot of miles and memories.
I’m just sitting here and I’m thinking about some of the trips. With or without selling it, I would be in a sentimental and nostalgic mood this week. Yet, I feel even more so now. I took so many drives in that car. They could be short like chauffeuring my grandma to library. They could be long…like chauffeuring my grandma to library. There were so many trips.
There have been countless times that I just went for a drive to clear my head or to run away for a weekend afternoon. The Civic was my only companion for a lot of them. She had to listen to my horrendous vocals singing along to some song on the radio. She took a little abuse over the course of the miles, but she kept going and never let me down. In fact, she never broke down, even if I did.
That Civic was my church when I came back to Denver two Januaries ago. I would go for a drive pretending I was still taking my grandma with me because I missed her so much. It was silly and foolish and my way of coping. Looking back, it’s easy for me to see that the Civic was more than a car to me. It was a part of me as a young man.
It seems crazy to have been attached to a collection of metal and rubber. And rationally, it is, but over time, you can become so attached that you don’t think of life without. I don’t hold onto the idea of youth because I want to stay young forever (I probably have more interests of a 60 year-old anyways), but it seems more and more, things are slipping away and then they are gone. I don’t know if it’s going to be anywhere as good. It might not be and that scares me.
I guess I should choose a song to attach to this post. I’m going to simply put up the song that I listened the most yesterday–the Band Perry’s “Don’t Let Me Be Lonely.” It sort of fits. If you don’t like mainstream country, I won’t be offended if you skip listening.
I should add that the moon is 238,900 miles away from Earth. It seems like it’s within a nice long drive tonight.